How it felt the first time I ejaculated...

I can clearly remember my first orgasm! I was 12 years old. I seemed to always have an erection. Each night when I went to bed I played with my erect penis until I fell asleep. One evening before bed I went to take a shower. I had turned the shower all the way to hot to turn the bathroom into a steam room. I was sitting on the toilet with the lid down on a towel. I soaped up my erect penis (I always had an erection in those days, remember?). I wrapped the fingers of one hand firmly around my very stiff penis and squeezed the shaft, starting at the top and stroking downward. It was a new feeling and I was very excited! I switched hands and did it again. It felt FABULOUS! I did it again and again! It felt better each time I squeezed and stroked downward! I felt a burning feeling begin, just below and in front of my cock head! It got hotter and hotter! My whole body began to convulse and convulse! I thought I was dying but it felt so good and so burningly hot! Unbearably hot and then, so hot I didnt think I could stand it. And even hotter still! Suddenly white, sticky stuff spurted from my piss slit! It shot up my belly, over my chest and onto my chin! I kept on ejaculating with ever weakening spurts. I squeezed my still hard penis again and again, trying to squeeze out every drop of that scalding gizz. My "really beyond fabulous" feeling began to dissipate, to be slowly replaced with a guilt and shame. I told myself I should never do that again! But the next night I slipped into the bathroom medicine cabinet and opened the jar of BUTCH GREASE and scooped out some. I went back to bed and used that grease in the same way as I had the soap the night before! Afterward, I realized that I had just used up one of a very limited number of climaxes. I knew that if I continued to masturbate (what a wonderful and exciting word) that I would quickly use up all my climaxes and all my semen would disappear and I would not be able to cum when I really needed to! But, I continued to do it every night and in spite of the guilt and shame I did it at least once each night and later in the daytime as well. I also experimented with ejaculating more than once in a day. I hooked up with various friends and other boys who liked to ejaculate in a group. Always followed with the guilt/shame and always ready go the next time! Finally one of those other guys suggested that I use my mouth on his uncircumcised penis and thats when I began my exciting career of cock sucking! And, you know, I have never u sed up all my orgasms or all of my gooey, hot, thick, white semen! I just blew a load after writing this! and I am over 70!