Kay's 2nd session...

Sir, Will say that the nerves were not as bad this time as before. however, the suspense of not knowing what "more severe" meant when YOU said it. the drive down......was good until i got closer and closer to Cape Charles. The wetness and butterflies really were competing. By the time i crossed the bridge and called you, i knew my panties were going to show my wetness! After i pulled into your drive, i was getting ready to phone you when i saw the door opening. My heart almost stopped! i knew i would soon find out what "more severe" meant and i could not wait. The embarrassment of you pulling open my shorts to check the wetness was almost too much for me - knew you would but that feeling will never change as it is still humiliating. Entering your house was just as hard this time as before but there was also a very calm feeling that wasnt there before. i knew i was going to feel pain but i also knew i would not be harmed. When you told me to strip, it was almost as if i couldnt get my clothes off fast enough. i was here to get the spanking that i deserved. When you pushed me over the end of the couch i thought i was going to scream. i was not prepared for the two, almost hardest, smacks that i could get! So wish i could see your handprints on my ass - it is my favorite picture. Realized this time that i dont like having to stand for spankings. i dont have the ability to stay still and i feel way more exposed or vulnerable. You have too many options and i cannot anticipate any of them. No, i still cannot keep my eyes open and i can just barely look at you! Why? don't know. i feel safe with you but yet almost feel as if i have disappointed you. i want to see what is in your hand but am scared to see at the same time. The ginger root - yikes! Never had a sensation like that before in my life and really would rather save feeling it again for punishment for misbehaving - will be good forever! think i would rather take 20 hits from you with that leather thing before more of the 2nd ginger! HOT. When you rubbed it on my clit - felt like molten lava. Definitely found a way to make me keep my legs open Sir. Seemed to get hotter when i closed my legs and closing my legs helps me to handle the pain by squeezing my ankles together. That ginger really broke my concentration and my ability to get in a zone to handle the pain. It kept my senses on edge! The cane! Sir....i have feared a cane and never let anyone use one on me before. i have to say, i am still wearing stripes from that cane! Cannot describe the feeling of when you hit me directly on my asshole. "ouch" is not adequate but yet it hurt sooooo good. When you hit my ass - pure fire! There has not been a feeling like that - not even that wooden brush. The cane has my respect Sir. My punishment hits. i realize now that you increased my hits and intensity of them as well as position.. The first time was over your knee - you had hold of me which was both comforting and intimidating. This time - you caught me completely off guard with that first hit with the leather thing (dont know what it was called). Will admit - you brought real tears out and sobs. i think i might have made five before i broke. Sir - that hurt. Not a bit of pleasure from that discipline spanking this time. Having to lie over the pillow and "give you a good target" was rough. When you leaned down at stroke number seven and said to my face..."it is supposed to hurt", it almost opened the flood gates on my tears. One of the best parts....otk spanking of my life! The one, after you removed the ginger, that you gave me that seemed to go on forever. Just as the spanking seemed to never end, my cumming didnt hardly stop either. Always hurt cumming too much was painful and it truly is. i hurt from cumming. Dont know why but i crave your hand! That is my favorite without a doubt. i guess i better leave an out with having said that - dont think i would like your hand if you were really upset with me. That hand of yours definitely has the ability to make me cry just as hard as that leather! You know, Sir, when you lie down on that bed and allow me to rest my head on you or just feel your arm near - all the pain seems worth it. i guess this is why i said i felt safe this time and way more relaxed. i respect you without a doubt but i do not fear you anymore. i know that for every hard swat you give me - i deserve it. i also know that you are doing it for me and because i need you to do it. When the spankings get intense, i can handle it easier if i can hold on to you - not sure why but it does. Even if it only means scrunching a handful of your clothes in my hand. You put me on my knees in front of you today. Another first for me. Have never knelt in front of someone and it was quite an unusual feeling. It reinforced my place and reminded me not to challenge you. You also made me hand you the one implement that i did not like the looks of. Was difficult to say the least. Can honestly say that you have read me like an enjoyable book. You seem to know just what to do to keep me off balance. You pick just the implement that keeps my attention. Same spanking today but oh so very different. No not so bruised or sore but so much more emotional for me. You kept me so on edge that it was extremely intense. No i could not handle as much today as the first visit yet it was as cleansing as the first. My ass - still dont understand it but i am sooooo glad you fucked it. By then, it was well stretched and OMG - the feeling! Sent chills down my spine. one more comment Sir. Your hand on my neck - seems to hold me still but that feeling of lack of control it gives to me is overwhelming. That feeling that you are so close to controlling my breathing is scary but exciting. Your touch is comforting as i know i can reach your hand yet at the same time scares me. i still dont know why i get so wet from such pain. so painful but sooooo wonderful. Please, Sir, just keep beating my ass! swear i feel like putty in your hand. thank you soooo much. As soon as i got home, i ran a warm - not hot! - bath and soaked in Epsom salts. Hoping it would ease the pain. First though i looked in the mirror and when i saw those stripes! why those cane welts stayed - dont know but surely wont be erased from my mind anytime soon either.