My Experience since joining TS on 4 July 22

12 July 22 Since my husband cant have sex anymore I've started to watch lots of porn as I'm so sex starved now for real cock. Having bucked up the courage to join TS which I found during a dating website search, I was excited and nervous about going into the chatroom for the first time. My husband doesn't know about it and I worry what he may think of me if he found out. So I only get onto TS when he's gone to bed or when I get a chance and he's out at work as he is now. I looked at some of the cameras on TS and loved watching men wanking or just feeling themselves, some of them were really up hard which was so nice to see, and it was somehow different from watching porn. There were lots of usernames came up in red at the side of my screen, and I didnt know why they were there. But after reading the tutorial today, I now understand why. I offer my sincere apologies to the kind people who just wanted to chat with me, but not knowing what it meant I didn't reply, I'm so sorry. There were so many names that came up on the screen that I wouldn't have been able to talk you all anyway, but I'll try my best next time. Having just popped into the chat room today, there were messages welcoming me and to chat with them, but I had to leave because I wanted to write this blog and I have many things to do like most of us. I'm feeling much more relaxed now after writing this and I can feel the tension being released and I'm at ease with myself. I've had my vibrator play again today after my husband left for work. My mind goes wild with excitment and my fantasies take me places that I'm almost too embarrassed to recall afterwards. More about that next time, and other things which I hope come my way. Bye Charlotte x